Part 19 in the Series 30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me.
How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
The moment I became a parent, I am going to assume we are talking about the moment I gave birth. Prior to that, I had already lost a baby and from the first time I found out I was pregnant, I considered myself a mommy. But let’s stick with giving birth. It is easier.
Initially I was happy. But there were several complications. I had a vaginal birth but they literally had to pull him out of my body. There was no crying. No noise. Just a huge group of people gathered around him.
I kept asking if he was OK. If he was alright. I was nervous. Everyone was a great liar and kept telling me he was fine. I found out later that he was gray in color, not breathing and my mom and husband were both terrified that he didn’t make it.
Then everything was fine. He was breathing and perfect. His poor little face was bruised so badly from being face up and also the forceps. But he was incredible.
I was ecstatic. Proud. And overwhelmed.
I remember that I kept thinking there was no way they were going to let us take him home from the hospital. I had no idea what I was doing.
One thing I felt that hasn’t changed though, to this day I am still so in love with that little man.