Part 13 in the series 30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me.
What is the hardest part of growing up?
There is a saying that I grew up hearing and to be honest I never really understood what it meant until I had children.
Youth is wasted on the young!
Oh it is so very true.
The hardest part for growing up will be me forcing you to cling to your childhood. Trying to rid you of worry, stress over school work or even a job. I will fight to keep you young and innocent for as long as possible.
All the while you will do everything you can to grow up as fast as possible.
It will become a battle of wills at times.
Don’t worry, I did the same thing. I couldn’t wait to go to high school. I couldn’t wait to get my license. I couldn’t wait to get my first job. Go to college. Get married. Have babies. It was all things that I wanted to do and not a single one of them was bad or wrong. But you spend so much time when you are young wishing you were older that you can miss your childhood.
And no matter what, you will never get those moments back.
Sure at moments I get glimpses of what it is like to be carefree. I force myself to lay on the grass and look for shapes in the clouds with you. And for a couple of minutes I am young again, without a care in the world.
I am reminded at times of the wonder of just watching it rain. Or the way the wind moves the trees.
And then before I realize it I am back in reality. Where I wonder if I am doing a good job as a mom. Where I worry about every thing I say to you or in front of you. Stress of raising children. Stress of making sure both of you and your Daddy are happy and cared for. Did I pay the power bill? Did I make that dentist appointment? Did I forget milk at the grocery store?
Wishing you were older will not make it happen any faster. But it will ensure that you miss out on the wonder and magic that is being a child. So I will fight to keep you young all while you fight to grow up.
Eventually you will win and someday you will leave our house and have your own. Then someday you will have your own children and you too will understand just how precious growing up is.