Life is Fragile

Just a few short weeks ago I posted a picture on here that in October we would be welcoming another baby into the Yellow Tennessee household. I will be honest, with a little one who just turned one year old, I was nervous. Actually if we are being honest, I was scared to death! But I also had some time between finding out I was pregnant and announcing it to the world. In that time I became excited. A new baby, no matter how big a surprise, is always a blessing.

At about 7 weeks along I had an ultrasound and all was well. One baby, where it should be, with a little heartbeat that was perfect.

Then suddenly at 10 weeks all was not well. My hormone levels were dropping with no reason. Another ultrasound showed that there was no longer a heartbeat.

I have had a miscarriage before. For whatever reason, there was a problem from the start and the baby never formed. There never was a heartbeat. This time I am dealing with the fact that all was fine. There was a heartbeat. And then one day, there wasn’t. Instead of not developing from the start, my baby died.

I appreciate your thoughts and prayers as we go through this difficult time. We found out the baby was a girl and we named her Mila Elizabeth. I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to hold her and say goodbye. I told her I would miss her always and I would love her for the rest my life.

Like this beautiful necklace that some of my friends gave me says, I carry you in my heart.

You will always be in my heart Mila and I someday I will see you again and I promise you when that glorious day comes, I will never let you go.

About Rachel

Rachel Akers writes about crafts, recipes, and features the adventures of a family of 4. It is always crazy but I wouldn't change it for the world! Comments or questions? Talk to me on Facebook or Twitter or sign up for our RSS feed to have future articles delivered to your feed reader.